बचपन में
बातूनी बहुत थी
निबंध भी ये लंबे-लंबे लिखती थी
शब्द सीमा का कभी आदर नहीं कर पाई।
अब सब छू कर कहते हैं,
"कुछ बोलो"
और मेरे शब्द
समाप्त हो गए
बचपन में।
This is a random personal blog - covering everything from poetry to politics. Views presented are strictly my own.
बचपन में
बातूनी बहुत थी
निबंध भी ये लंबे-लंबे लिखती थी
शब्द सीमा का कभी आदर नहीं कर पाई।
अब सब छू कर कहते हैं,
"कुछ बोलो"
और मेरे शब्द
समाप्त हो गए
बचपन में।
जितना मुझे क्षणिकाओं से प्रेम है, जीवन का सार एक क्षणिका में ही मिलना था.
किसी और की लिखी हुई है. किसने लिखी है, इस पर इंटरनेट एकमत नहीं हो पा रहा है. तो पता नहीं किसने लिखी है.
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सूखे पत्तों की सिम्त बिखरे हुए थे हम
एक शख्स ने समेटा
और आग लगा दी.
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Some friendships are like chemistry - lots of fireworks, explosions even, and if among opposite genders, perhaps some chemistry..?
Some are like physics. Lots of difficult problems that make no sense, and lots to do.
Some are like Accountancy - always about profit and loss.
Some are like maths - adding and reducing, multiplying and dividing... but somehow, never really adding up to much.
Very few are real friendships.. just that.. friendships.
When your friends appear unhinged, the kindest thing to do is to cut the rope and let them go with the flow.
Their boats need to find their homes on some very, very distant shores.
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When a face wants to leave a group photo,
don't force them to disappear pixel by pixel.
Allow them to use the erase function.
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जीवन की उपलब्धि यह है कि
नया दुख दर्द नहीं है कोई
अपने तो
आँसू भी परसों के बासी हैं
An underrated
but important blessing
is that there is
no new pain or hurt
even the tears
are leftovers from day before.
How to tell if someone might have sepsis:
S for slow speech or confusion,
E for extreme pain in the muscles or joints,
P for passing no urine for 24 hours,
S for severe breathlessness,
I for “it feels like I’m going to die”, and
S for skin that’s mottled, discoloured, blueish or very pale. OR purpura.
- Most of this text is from an online article. Some points I have added basis our experience with sepsis.
many times
we have tried.
never once
succeeded.
too jagged our edges are
to align
When friends text:
1: You are a cherished friend.
2: Awww!!
1: And I love you a lot!
2: I love you a lot too!
When old friends text:
1: You are a cherished friend.
2: 🤦♀️अब कौन सा कांड कर दिया तूने?
1: And I love you a lot!
2: अबे तुझे बुखार है?
Translation:
1: You are a cherished friend.
2: 🤦♀️What did you get yourself into now?
1: And I love you a lot!
2: And you are not well?
Today, I became aware of something very funny.
When it comes to identification of emotions, I am like an infant. Or a toddler.
I have very poor cognitive understanding of how I feel about someone.
If I feel well around someone and unwell when they are not around, it means I love them.
If I feel unwell around someone and well when they are not around, it means I should avoid them.
It seems that amygdala, hippocampus, hypothalamus, or whatever part of the brain works on identification of emotions, is kind of dead for me.
I have had to depend on "vibe" for some time now. Until today, when I realised that vibe is not a preferred method to identify emotions, it is now my only method.
And in some surprising way, it feels ok. Like the loss of memory. The loss of cognitive ability. And now, this loss of any analysis of emotions.
I don't know if I can analyse the emotions of others. Till two weeks ago, one could. Who knows?
PS: No, don't want advice. Just putting it out here.