Trishanku

तुम 
कविता में 
पढ़ना मुझ को 
मैं बस वहीँ 
समझ आती हूँ
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पकड़ना चाहो,
तो यथार्थ में 
मिलना 

समझना चाहो 
तो कविता से  
समझना मुझको 


Read me
in a book of poetry
that is the only place
where I can be
understood.
 

Main kya maangoon, kuchh Thir na reha..

When I came back from Hyderabad, I was reeling under the loss of father and grandmother both. As the day passed, the only memories that came back were of her teaching me Gurmukhi, the technique of sweeping, mopping, and knitting. I didn't remember any of the less pleasant stuff.

This year, I have lost both grandmothers, and my father. A lot of ppl ask me how I know what I know. It is because of my grandparents, and my parents.

Was looking for peace. This is a shabad that I hum often, with just one line - मैं क्या मांगूं, कुछ थिर न रहा, हर दीजे नाम प्यारी जीओ (What should I ask for, since everything in the world is ephemeral.. Dear Lord, grant me thy name..)

Sharing the shabad that has brought me much peace in this week..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TbGqkRc8Ubw


And the lyrics with their meaning are here: (reproduced below) 
Tek :-  

Tu Prabh Data Daan Mat Pura, Ham Thare Bihkari Jio.

( You, God, Are The Giver Of Gifts;

 The Lord Of Perfect Understanding;

  I Am A Mere Beggar At Your Door. ) 

Shabad:-

Mai Kya Mangu, Kuch Thirro Na Rhaai

Har Dije Naam Piyari Jio ||1||

( What Should I Beg For? Nothing Remains Permanent;

  O Lord, Please, Bless Me With Your Beloved Name. ||1|| )

Tu Prabh Data Daan Mat Pura, Ham Thare Bihkari Jio.

( You, God, Are The Giver Of Gifts;

 The Lord Of Perfect Understanding;

  I Am A Mere Beggar At Your Door. ) 

Ghat Ghat Rav Rahaiya Banvari.

( In Each And Every Heart, The Lord, The Lord Of The Forest, Is Permeating And Pervading. )

 

Jal Thal Mahiyal, Gupto Varte.

Gur Shabdi Dehk Nihari Jio. || Raho ||

( In The Water, On The Land, And In The Sky, He Is Pervading But Hidden;

  Through The Word Of The Guru's Shabad, He Is Revealed. ||Pause||  )

Tu Prabh Data Daan Mat Pura, Ham Thare Bihkari Jio.

( You, God, Are The Giver Of Gifts;

 The Lord Of Perfect Understanding;

  I Am A Mere Beggar At Your Door. ) 

Satnam Shri Waheguru.

( The Name Is Truth Creative Being Personified No Fear No Hatred Image Of The Undying. )

Marat Peeyal Akash Dikhayo,

Gur Satguru Kirpa Dhari Jio.

( In This World, In The Nether Regions Of The Underworld, 

  And In The Akaashic Ethers, The Guru, The True Guru, Has Shown Me The Lord;

  He Has Showed Me With His Mercy. )

Soo Barham Ajohni, Hai Bhi Honi,

Gath Bhitar Dehk Murari Jio.||2|| 

( He Is The Unborn Lord God; He Is, And Shall Ever Be.

   Deep Within Your Heart, Behold Him, The Destroyer Of Ego.||2|| )

Mai Kya Mangu, Kuch Thirro Na Rhaai

Har Dije Naam Piyari Jio ||1||

( What Should I Beg For? Nothing Remains Permanent;

  O Lord, Please, Bless Me With Your Beloved Name. )

Janam Maran Ko Eh Jag Bapudo, 

 Ihn Duhje Bahgat Visari Jio ||

( This Wretched World Is Caught In Birth And Death;

  In The Love Of Duality; It Has Forgotten Devotional

  Worship Of Lord. )

Satguru Mile Ta Gurumat Paiye,

Sakat Bahji Hari Jio ||3||

( Meeting The True Guru, The Guru's Teaching Are

  Obtained; The Faithless Cynic Loses The Game Of Life. ||3|| )

Mai Kya Mangu, Kuch Thirro Na Rhaai

Har Dije Naam Piyari Jio ||1||

( What Should I Beg For? Nothing Remains Permanent;

  O Lord, Please, Bless Me With Your Beloved Name. )

Satnam Shri Waheguru.

( The Name Is Truth Creative Being Personified No Fear No Hatred Image Of The Undying. )

Satguru Bandhan Tohad Nirare,

Bahod Na Garabh Majahri Jio ||

( Breaking My Bonds, The True Guru Has Set Me Free,

  And I Shall Not Be Cast Into The Womb Of Reincarnation Again. )

Nanak Gayan Ratan Pargasiya,

Har Man Vasya Nirnkari Jio ||4||8||

( O Nanak, The Jewel Of Spiritual Wisdom Shines Forth, 

  And The Lord, The Formless Lord, Dwells Within My Mind.||4||8|| )

Mai Kya Mangu, Kuch Thirro Na Rhaai

Har Dije Naam Piyari Jio ||1||

( What Should I Beg For? Nothing Remains Permanent;

  O Lord, Please, Bless Me With Your Beloved Name. ) 

Satnam Shri Waheguru.

( The Name Is Truth Creative Being Personified No Fear No Hatred Image Of The Undying. )

Tu Prabh Data Daan Mat Pura, Ham Thare Bihkari Jio.

( You, God, Are The Giver Of Gifts;

 The Lord Of Perfect Understanding;

  I Am A Mere Beggar At Your Door. ) 

 

Happy Father's Day Papa..

Tomorrow is Father's Day. Also the day we will be returning the body of our father to his Father in heaven.




I came home to spend Father's Day with him.. and had a strong feeling that I should spend July 1 here with him.. because it will be his last birthday.. but he didn't wait that long.


Now, I celebrated Father's Day by consigning his body to the Fire God, and will spend July 1 as his Terhnvi - 13th Day.






I think.. there should be some divine rule against taking fathers 2 days before Father's Day and 10 days before their birthday.





Happy 65th Papa. Sleep Well.


Waheguru.

पहाड़

पहाड़ सब
एक से ही दीखते हैं
 हरे, खूबसूरत
सशक्त

तस्वीर कहीं से भी हो
मॉडल सदा एक सा ही होता है
 

Bachpan ko, Hak Hai..

ਬਚਪਨੇ ਨੂ
ਹਕ ਹੈ
ਰੋਸੇ ਦਾ

ਹਾਸੇ ਦਾ
ਮਿੰਨਤਾਂ ਦਾ
ਜਾਫ੍ਫਿਯਾੰ ਦਾ

Bachpan nu

Hakk hai

Rose da

Haase da

Minnataan da

Jaffiyaan da 

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बचपन को

हक़ है  

रूठने का
रोने का
रेत के मंदिर बना कर
उनके टूटने पर
सौ मन मोती बहाने का

बिना बात की
संवेदनशीलता का

बचपन को
हक़ है
झूलों का
आसमानों का। 
 

Meri Har Tayyari bas tum tak..

I love this song.. cant get it out of my eco system.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k09uvR5eUao

मनचाहा ही रिश्ता - इमरोज़

Was pleasantly surprised to see a book of poetry by Imroz, who is more of a painter.. and it felt as if Amrita was speaking through him.. funny what years of companionship can do to a person..

Presenting.. excerpts..

पेड़ पंछी पैदा नहीं करते
पर पंछियों को घर देते हैं

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ये रब का  तजुर्बा ही हो सकता है करामात नहीं
की बच्चा औरत का जिस्म पैदा करे औरत नही.
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ज़रूरतें न होती
तो रब की भी ज़रुरत न होती
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पैर खोलो  तो धरती अपनी है
पंख खोलो तो आसमान
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प्यार अपनी किस्मत आप लिखता है
और सब की किस्मत कोई और लिखता है
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एक मनचाही ज़िन्दगी ही
ज़िन्दगी का आसमान है
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ज़िन्दगी तस्वीर भी है
और तकदीर भी
मनचाहे रंगों से बन जाए
तो तस्वीर
अनचाहे रंगों से बने
तो तकदीर
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न तरस करो
न रहम
दोनों में आदर नहीं
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पाप जिस्म नहीं करता
सोच करती है
गंगा जिस्म साफ़ करती है
सोच नहीं
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जब माँ नहीं होती
किसी रिश्ते में घर नहीं होता
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प्यार समझ में नहीं आता
पर प्यार समझ लेता है
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बिखरने के लिए
लोग ही लोग
पर एक होने के लिए
एक भी मुश्किल
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रिश्ते बनना और बनाना एक कला है
कानून मौका देता है रिश्ता नहीं
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माँ बोली बगैर पढ़े ही आ जाती है…
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खून के रिश्ते रिश्ते लगते हैं
पर हो नहीं पाते
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अच्छी सोच से अच्छा
कोई कानून नहीं
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Spiritual post

Today, I mentioned to someone that I don't think about self, so what others think of me is usually a blind spot. I have no idea how I am doing.. the person wondered where that is coming from.. I tried to explain the concept of bubbles and self. But it was only at home that I really figured it out.

I don't think about self because I don't have a concept of self. When we see people as "selves", we see them as stars, and a collection of these stars is a galaxy - a little like The Milky Way. But that law by Newton - Energy cannot be created or destroyed, it only changes form - is the exact same thing that the Geeta says about the Soul - it cannot be created or destroyed, it only changes form.

Another thing - that is very prevalent in Sanskrit thought - The microcosm and the macrocosm, reside in each other. I have truly experienced that.

So, I see the world, not as a galaxy, but as a pure, harmonious, unending wave of energy, not obstructed by concepts of self. When we take those obstructions of "self" away, we see only the flowing river of energy - which can neither be disturbed, nor created, nor destroyed. I see it so clearly, yet cannot describe it. Its one of those things that you experience in meditation, but cannot explain to anyone else. Yet it is real. I experience it, but cannot describe it. Because words slow us down.

जो भी मैं, कहना चाहूँ, बर्बाद करें, अलफ़ाज़ मेरे।