Thursday, September 20, 2007

My Son:


When you came into the world, i knew 2 things - 1. That i wanted a daughter; and 2. That it would only make a difference till the first moment of seeing you.


Today, as you look at me with eyes that say "I am so innocent, why are you looking at me like that?"(after making me stay up for 3 hours in the middle of the night, kicking at my stitches like its still your home inside me, and crying pointlessly for most part of those 3 hours, because that is your current definition of "entertainment"), my heart melts. The hurting does not matter any more.


Son, till we had you, i used to say, "Children are God's way of making you pay for what you did to your parents." Now I know, they are also God's way of making you understand why mothers are as forgiving as they are, and fathers as indulgent as they appear to be. Why nothing else matters. Why the heart aches with each Wah! , even when you know that the child is in safe hands. The heart still goes Dhak!


This is not a eulogy of you, son. This is a Thank you note to my parents. To a mother who created so much love in the house that we never knew what it was to be unloved. We knew what it was to be loved and smothered with kisses more than we liked, but never what it was to be unloved.

To a father who melted faster than butter on a stove, who was exploited by his sole weakness on earth - his daughter, who is, till date, his greatest fight adversary. When you do that to us, I will know how my father felt all these years.

I read Kahlil Gibran on Children for several years, and today, the prayer is not that I should know, but that I should remember when it is important to remember.

You may not follow our path, our advice, or even our conversation. That is not what we seek. What we do seek, is that the path you follow, Son, should keep you warm on your way, and God Be With You!

7 comments:

Giri said...

Very nice!

adi said...

amen!

and no other words

Swati said...

Lovely post. God Bless Him

Z said...

A child changes you forever, and changes your perceptions too. A beautiful, perceptive post.

Something to Say said...

Firstly heartiest congratulations on the lil boy. How are you doing new mommy? Your post was so.... sensitive and so lovely - I cant believe you are a sleep deprived mom. All I remember of myself when sonny was born - was snarling at hubby and sonny - in turns - nothing a tenth as beautiful came to my mind. You rock lady!!!

deepti said...

this is so beautiful, simply beautiful... :-)

Mampi said...

The best lines were, "I should remember when it is important to remember."