Saturday, August 29, 2015

Anger and Love

When my son was very young - perhaps around 2 years or so, he used to throw temper tantrums often. So one day I told him, "I know why you get angry. Jab hamari pyaar ki battery down ho jaati hai to vo khali jagah gusse se bharti hai. Come, let me recharge ur pyaar ki battery."

And I used to hug him tight after that. At first, he was zapped. Then, he started hugging back even when he was angry.

Today, we recharge each other's "pyaar ki battery" often. When I am mad at him, he remembers to ask me, "Aapki pyaar ki battery low ho gayi hai na?"

And then I realised, its true for adults too. When the heart is full of love, anger finds no place. When love diminishes, then anger appears - in small doses at first. If we do not recharge the batteries of love, the empty space is taken over by anger.

Thursday, August 27, 2015

Ek Purana Mausam Lauta, Yaad Bhari Purvai bhi...

Today, my son and i went to get some stuff for the house. Tucked under the stairs, one spotted.. a BOOKSTORE! The display made it clear that this was a curated place, so i walked in . Now, if you know my son, you also know that he cannot be held still anywhere, and the probability of holding him still in a bookstore is about .00007%.

We walked in, and right at the entrance were children's books.. NOT Geronimo Stiltons. NOT Enid Blytons.. REAL Children's books. Ishaan picked up a Kids' Joke book while I spoke with the owner. In the meantime, the child doubled up with laughter and came to share a joke every 2 minutes. They WERE funny jokes.

We looked around, for books, at books, flipped through the pages, saw the pictures...the child in his own section, and me in mine.. The collection was just right.. picked by a bibliophile. The space was well managed.. with 2 stools that one could use to browse and read.

At one place, one saw.. Logic Puzzles! Now, one's being a puzzle junkie is no secret... and this here.. was a treasure trove.. an entire SECTION dedicated to puzzle books and NOT dominated by Word Search, Sudoku and Crossword alone.

By this time, I hadn't heard the child's voice for over 5 minutes, and that, in motherspeak, is Code Red. So i started running to find him. The person at the counter gestured that i should pause, and everything is fine. I turned the corner to find my son's head buried in another book.

And then one got thinking.. When we walk into a bookstore, a conversation begins. The books tell us things about them - starting with the cover, the no. of pages, the size of the print, the quality of paper, the excerpts we manage to catch...we ask questions and hope that they have the answers among the pages we are flipping.. They open our eyes to vistas not yet observed.  Its a friendship that begins even before its formalised. Reminds me of Heidi and Clara.

A lot of us still pause outside a bookstore and can't help picking up at least one book.  We know how it feels to enter a bookstore and come out with only one book, even if we went in to buy "Vikram's Model Papers for Class X" , we were still eyeing the latest Archie near the store counter.

The reviewed books, they are out there, getting bought. That's the commerce of business. The good books, in the hands of  well curated bookshops, THAT is the romance of books.

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Poetry/ शायरी

जैसे मलीहाबाद  के आमों का रस..... 
तुप्का तुपका
ज़बां पर टपके

बूँद बूँद
मीठी हुई जाए है 

Wednesday, August 05, 2015

I want to talk abt
crushing pain
the kind that
falls on ur head
and u die.
it hasn't been invented yet.
we seem to be able to
whether we want to
or not.

Thursday, July 23, 2015

Charity Tourism

Is when you want to visit an orphanage or old age home or blind school to do some good work.

Wednesday, July 01, 2015


हमारे सब से कठिन रास्ते
नहीं लाते अपने साथ
अंकों का सिरहाना
 जिस पर सर रख कर
हम सो लें कुछ देर

न मील के पत्थर
जिन से
जान लें
कि सुकून
कितनी दूर है अभी

बवंडर कहाँ लाते हैं
अगणित ही होती है
साक्ष्य से परे , निर्णय से दूर। 

Happy Birthday with Hava Nagila!

It is July 1. Normally, at this time, I would be up, looking frantically at flowers and guessing which will be good for him to get. Mentally imagining his voice saying "Why do you waste money on flowers?"

Today, there were no flowers to order. I called up the blind school and requested them to let us sponsor the food for the whole day - breakfast, lunch and evening tea (dinner was booked).

It is his 13th day. Also his 65th birthday.

I have been very sad the whole evening, and most part of the day. Suddenly, a song pops up in head. And a minute later, I smile. That's classic dad. Asking me to not be sad. To "Hava Nagila" (Let us Rejoice)

Ladies and gentlemen, presenting the Birthday Greeting that my dad prefers - Hava Nagila.

I have spent the last hour listening to at least 50 renditions, and this one finally made me smile. Even from up there, dad knows exactly what he wants.

Here are the other good ones:

Harry Belafonte:

One more:



ये न सोचो 
के हिंदुस्तान आखिर कर क्या रहा है 
ये सोचो 
की अगर हिन्दुतान वो कर गया,
जो वो कर सकता है 
तो तुम क्या करोगे?

Monday, June 29, 2015


कविता में 
पढ़ना मुझ को 
मैं बस वहीँ 
समझ आती हूँ
पकड़ना चाहो,
तो यथार्थ में 

समझना चाहो 
तो कविता से  
समझना मुझको 

Read me
in a book of poetry
that is the only place
where I can be